I spent it alone on the freezing docks (Matthew Arnold said a man’s life is over at thirty).
My mood was lower than ever (Moods
are a big influence on our being, Heidegger thought). I
saw my twenties (The Jazz Age);
my old girlfriends (Simenon slept
with 10,000 women); my
long mornings bent over poems (St.
Jerome in his study). In the end, a professorship. I
arrived in time to please my grandparents (Ellis Island passage, 1907). You’re a figure,
regardless of the cost (Marlowe,
Doctor Faustus). I seemed slightly larger then, and the
world seemed more promising, higher up (Silent upon a peak in Darien). Now
only one wondering: when will I set sail, and when will I find that