The World’s Guide to Beginning
I was born in the obscene genius
of the club. I was a chemical
hero. Slick as a greasy encyclopedia,
I strutted like a bullfighter. I learned kink
is another word for survival. learned to love
the body more for what it can do
than for what it is. how did you get this far
without knowing lust is disaster’s
good cousin, what flickers when the rest
has been burned down and blown
away? there will be a quiz.
here’s another story: I was born.
I was adored. I am in charge. I need you
to tie me down, now. call it love,
this intimate vine. this gift
of the mother. gift of the neighbor,
the uncle, gift of the whip. the dildo.
lying was my first language. I am not
ashamed. touch is not reversible. one
cannot be un-touched. are you
uncomfortable? good. then it’s begun.
go ahead and cry. to break
is to be sanctified. to find in the body
a safehouse where all your monsters
get to be raucous, bring the audience
to their feet calling what. what.
dig at the shame places. your gutter
of a cunt. your crowbar of a cock.
say the words, say fuck and wheelbarrow
and voluptuary until it all sounds
like amen, amen, amen, amen, amen,
amen, amen, amen. why despise
your own wiring? it was desire
that made you; however twisted
the originating bed, your beginning
was ferocious. quiz: what’s the difference
between a lie and a myth. answer:
the storyteller’s intention. example: I
am more bear than fruit. more leather
than lion. legend says I opened my mouth
and the world rolled out. the brine
of saliva, browbone splitting into branch,
to root. and from the cheeks, the sweetest
meat, the man, the woman, the lost
androgynous other. example: in our myth, Atlas
is a hermaphrodite. a dancer. bearded lady
in a g-string in a cage above the dance floor.
fact: there are gods who love us,
and they want us to fuck. have I earned
another story? to emerge, a world
must learn itself, then flood,
then burn. unfurl your ugly
like fists inside another’s
body. step into a skin familiar
as your mother’s bed, and
as spurned. something in you
stands up. it is like light,
or a crime. it is alive.